I thought everything was perfect. I didn't see it how you felt. I rushed in with my hands over my eyes and my heart pushed out. Ready to take over the world with you, and after awhile discovered I was running alone and in the wrong direction. Red Pinwheels of useless tears and horrible horrible fears of not knowing where you went, without me noticing. How did this happen. What did I do so right, that had me close my eyes so tight as to not really see.
You forgave my trespasses, that was a gamble I knew you would win. I loved every fiber you, and you seemingly only loved some of mine. Where does that leave me? How cold will I be without your pinky toes to pop. or your snores to adore.
My feet were firmly planted in the idea of you and I. The longevity, the support, the love we found. The right and the wrongs were all the reasons to be there, to hold you, to help you, and to hold your hand through everything. No matter how weak you may have felt, I promised you and never intended upon ever giving up. You are my talisman. Ask me to read to you what I mean by that. My words one day will be in a book dedicated to you. Is not our love truly a heavenly structure, and also as firm as the vault of heaven? Much as you love me - I love you more - But do not ever conceal yourself from me.
Lightening rushes through my soul, out my finger tips, all the way to your heart. I know you feel me. Even from 2292 miles away.
